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You Are Apple Juice

You're very likable and quite popular. It's hard not to find something to love about you. You are playful and fun. You try to bring levity to situations. While you are entertaining, you're not very hyper or mischievous. You are laid back, low key, and even a bit sensitive.

What Kind of Juice Are You?

You Are a Cappuccino

You're fun, outgoing, and you love to try anything new. However, you tend to have strong opinions on what you like. You are a total girly girly at heart - and prefer your coffee with good conversation. You're the type that seems complex to outsiders, but in reality, you are easy to please

What Kind of Coffee Girl Are You?

You Are a Chocolate Cheesecake

Rich and greedy, you're attracted to the dark side of life. Nothing ever quite satisfies your inner beast. And somehow, people find that sexy.

What Kind of Cheesecake Are You?

How I'm feeling...

I've usually believed that not knowing what to do is one of the worst things in life. I hate that feeling of being stuck. I hate that feeling of being unhappy and not knowing what to do about it. Even worse, I hate the feeling of being unhappy and KNOWING what you can do about it, but can't.

Why? I keep asking myself that. I don't know if it was fate that defined my life, or if I was the one that defined it. I question myself and my life a lot lately. Many times throughout my life I've said this: I'm not supposed to be here. This is not my life. It shouldn't be.

I've said it many times.

Was it my failed relationships? And are they really failed? By letting such relationships and people go, would they still be labeled failed? Haven't they made me stronger, wiser? Haven't they helped shape the person I am today; haven't they?

And I've often wondered what my future life would be like. From the outside, many people would have assumed my life to be very strange, by-no-means-simple, challenging, and even sad. I still rose from all the rock bottoms I've hit with a few losses (and wins?).

If someone told me where I would be today and what I'd be doing with my life, say ten years ago, I would have been... I'm not sure what I would have been. Excited? Anxious? Sad? Thrilled? I really don't know, but in order to judge, I would have had to go through the whole journey, not just the destination.

And it always seems to me that one of the major lessons of my life is this: PATIENCE. I don't know if I've been through all that I've been through to be more patient or to realize I should have been less patient. I do believe our subconscious mind guides us, so one of my early lessons in my life must have been women should be patient, and more patient...or those who aren't patient aren't rewarded (well, those who are very patient aren't either). So, in my mind it must have been some kind of equation: Patience = Rewards + Happiness.

I also remember being told I was selfish as a child and teenager whenever I thought of myself. Now I didn't say when I thought of myself often or more than I should...only when I thought of myself. And I would be criticized for it. Again, another equation was formed: Selfless = Happy.

Just like I was told that most beautiful girls are stupid, and that they're usually arrogant. I suppose that has often helped me before put on weight. I was criticized less then.

Now that explains a lot.

Because the last ten years of my life (or less) are like a pattern. Yes, different people, situations, emotions...but the same pattern.

My old belief system is no longer the same, but it's not entirely different or all-new now either. Why? Because I'm still hanging on to old beliefs, and a life that's not as fulfilling and happy as should be. Because I'm still hurt and lonely inside. Because I often cry at night. Because when I no longer cry, I often feel like my tears have dried. Because I still settle for less. And because I'm still very patient.

I long to be free. I long to be tied down and free. I long to be happy. I long to laugh. I long to find my true calling in life. I long to be who I'm meant to be. The many great things I could be.

I'm sometimes too scared of what I can do to free myself; and having been wrong before, I question myself if I'd be wrong again.

Oh, and I just remembered. I had a dream about Brad Pitt and Angelina Jolie last night. Angie looked really tired, but she was very loving to her children. Have no clue what that means. Probably it means I long for motherhood, too. Perhaps.

This had to be one of the most honest posts I've ever written.

Comments, anyone?

This made my day!

http://caitlinatnv.blogspot.com/2009/02/while-i-was-browsing-blogger.html

While I was browsing blogger.com, I came across a blog called Ramblings of a Dreamer, and I decided to check it out. I was drawn to this blog because of its title. "Ramblings of a Dreamer" just sounds like something that a creative writer would name their blog. The first thing that I read was a poem called "I sometimes wonder ..." which is a poem all about what this person thinks about. As I scrolled through the blog, There are a bunch of mini entries about who 'you are'. This is very interesting because the author goes through and talks about many different personality types, but when I read through them all, I realized that I related to more than one of them. I thought this was interesting. This author sounds very genuine, and I can relate to her very easily; I'm sure others can too by what she writes about.
She then goes on to a list titled "Have You Ever?". This list is very interesting because it sounds to me like it is a list of things people seem to want to do or accomplish in life before they die. It is a very interesting list, and it goes from sleeping under the stars to visit the White House. It is a very creative list and sound like things people actually want to do.
All in all, I chose this blog to write about because it is very interesting, creative, and most improtantly, not boring. I can also relate to the author because she seems very genuine and creative; her blog keeps you wondering what she will write about next.

Coffee and Chocolate... I couldn't ask for more! :)

You Are Coffee

You are highly ambitious and goal oriented. You feel like there isn't enough time in your day to get it all done. You are outgoing and creative. You love talking with people, thinking up crazy plans, and then acting immediately on them. When it comes to caffeine, you'd like a refill. You can almost always use an energy boost. Life is too short. You're going to get as much out of it as you can. You live for today.

Are You Coffee or Tea?

You Are Chocolate

You make people feel euphoric and dreamy. You're very addicting. You definitely drive people to passion, lust, and even obsession. While you are quite sensual, you are also comforting. You sure know how to work your magic. It doesn't take long to get someone to love you.

What Aphrodisiac Are You?

What Girl Scout Cookie Are You?

You Are Peanut Butter Patties / Tagalongs

You are creative and artistic. When you think, you tend to think big. You go for the drama. You love excitement and passion... even if it gets you in trouble. You are intense and a little self centered. You can be quite full of yourself (but not without reason). You tend to be very indulgent. If you feel like having something, you go ahead and treat yourself.

What Girl Scout Cookie Are You?

What Kind of Kid Were You?

You Were an Active Kid

When you were a kid, you were happy as long you didn't have to sit still. You were very hyper, and it was hard for you to sit through class or finish your homework. It's likely that you were a natural athlete and a natural entertainer. You loved to play outside with your friends. You were an outgoing, popular kid. Put you in a sports game or a school play, and you really shined.

What Kind of Kid Were You?

I sometimes Wonder...

I sometimes wonder what's worth living for

I sometimes wonder how come I still feel him with me

I sometimes wonder if he's really gone

I sometimes wonder who I would call now to cheer me up

I sometimes wonder who would tell me now how much he loves me

I sometimes wonder how much more I'm going to miss him

I sometimes wonder how much he now misses me

I sometimes wonder why he's gone

I sometimes wonder if I'd known all that then, would I have still chosen him?

I sometimes wonder if anyone will ever love me as much as he did

I sometimes wonder why life is so cruel

I sometimes wonder who I am

I sometimes wonder what I should have done

I sometimes wonder if I shall ever be happy

I sometimes wonder when I shall ever be happy

I sometimes wonder why I feel so lonely

I sometimes wonder if you deserve me

I sometimes wonder if we're meant to be

I sometimes wonder if you're just another failed relationship

I sometimes wonder why you haven't turned out to be the one

I sometimes wonder how long I can last like this

I sometimes wonder how much lost I can feel

I sometimes wonder why I feel so helpless, yet so strong

I wonder...